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Thursday, September 26, 2013
HotShot Crew Honored by Brendan McDonough's Resilience
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Loss of the Granite Mountain HotShot Crew rememberedduring 4th of July celebration, 2013 |
Brendan McDonough is the young Granite Mountain HotShot firefighter who was assigned to be the team's 'lookout' and so was not in the same location with the rest of his crew - all 19 of whom perished on Granite Mtn. at Yarnell Hill in Northern Arizona, just four days ago!
Brendan was the guest speaker at Parkside Community Church in Camp Verde, Arizona recently. I attended the church service with a need to hear his story (yes - 'history'). He sat just seats away from me and I could feel his pain and agony as he was introduced while video images of his crew in earlier days moved across the large screen and a recording played Vince Gill singing Go Rest High On That Mountain.
I had prepared myself that, in attending this event, it would be painful. I also recognized that 'my' emotional pain could not compare to Brendan's. As we sat listening to the mournful song and watching images fade in and out on the screen of his crew in earlier times, moving about the wildlands landscape working and or smiling and joking glad to be where they were, I thought, "why are they playing this?" It's so painful for him! But quickly I realized too - grieving IS painful, but must be done. Brendan was in tears, as were most of us in the audience.
With my own emotions welling up, I wanted to give him a comforting hug and to hand him my own Kleenex tissue as he tried continually to wipe away his tears - bare handed, but I thought better of offering my own tears on the used tissue to mix with his own. About that time one of the ushers appeared at his side with a box of tissues. I felt some relief.
He wasn't what you'd call a wholly eloquent speaker, just a young kid trying to speak about a dreadfully difficult experience, in essence, trying to tell us how he came to be spared death while the rest of his beloved crew was not, all still fresh and undoubtedly, raw. The pastor accompanied Brendan onto the stage where they both sat and spoke of the events of June 30th. Pastor Martin gently guiding Brendan through the pain. It was acknowledged that Brendan had given this talk a number of times already, it was obviously still painful to go through.
He didn't tell us much that we had not already heard though the media, but hearing in his own voice about what happened that day somehow helped me in thinking that by being there to hear it, I was 'helping him in his grief' if that makes any sense.
He seemed to be in somewhat 'good spirits' as he told a funny story or two surrounding the camaraderie of his crew in earlier times. Brendan, through no design of his own, will spend his life dealing with an incredible burden - no matter how well he handles it, or seems to handle it.
After the service he was available for those who might speak to him. Of course I had to. After waiting my turn in line, I gave him a hug, and simply said that I would be thinking positive thoughts for his future. I mentioned to Brendan, my son-in-law Jonathan (who IS) and his wife, my daughter Beth (who used to be a firefighter) and my personal connection to that world. Jonathan and his own Red Rock District/Camp Verde fire crew had been sent to fires in New Mexico just days prior to the Granite Mountain incident. It was another group of wildlands firefighters, (who on occasion had worked alongside Jonathan's crew) who discovered the remains of the '19' on Granite Mountain.
I gave Brendan a copy of Listen To The Noise with a hope that the music there, with no connection to 'fire,' might give him a opportunity to escape in the melodies. I hoped that it might at times ease his mind.
His look, his demeanor, his speech patterns, Brendan's apparent sense of integrity and personal dignity, his love of life are so reminiscent of my perception of the young, optimistic, energetic wildland firefighters I'd encountered over the years in Washington, Oregon, Idaho and Arizona.
The day after the tragedy as a way of dealing with my own sense of grief over that event, I'd written a lament for the loss of the 19 firefighters. I may revisit that 'ode' in years to come but right now it seems too sad to listen to again.
Anyway, I think it's good that he is sharing, not his 'experience' (we can't be THERE with him) but his story. I think it's good for him to talk about it so it isn't 'shut up within him to fester and eat away at his soul, (I hope it doesn't) and good for us to have hope about life and the delicate twists and turns that come with living life to the fullest. His very presence offers 'hope' and a sense that even in the harshest events - all is not lost.
- - - - - Communications Gap Found in Granite Mountain HotShots Death Incident - - - -
The folowing link is an update to the blog, a report of the investigation of the incident on Granite Mountain published via NPR on Sept. 28, 2013:
http://www.npr.org/blogs/thetwo-way/2013/09/28/227177905/report-on-arizona-hotshots-deaths-finds-a-communications-gap?ft=1&f=1001Tuesday, July 9, 2013
19 Lost - Granite Mountain Hot Shots Honored

The
lump in my throat gets in the way of finding words to express the grief over
the deaths of 19 young wildlands firefighters.
The
younger of my two daughters began a career as a wildland firefighter. Beth left that occupation that she had come to love when she became Jonathan’s bride. They both understood that for the future they wanted dual-fire careers was not a practical fit.
Jonathan Nash,
now my precious son-in-law, continues in a long time career as a wildlands
firefighter. Thoughts of him are always in my heart when I hear he's gone on a fire. As I think of him and other wildland firefighters I came to
know, while living in Oregon and working as a journalist I recognize that they
are a brotherhood of bright, energetic, problem solving, compassionate, dedicated heroes. There are both men and women among that unique alumni.
Though strong, independent individuals, in
a way; they seem to have similar personality traits and characteristics. I’ve
thought on occasion how much young firefighters seem alike. There’s often that easy going smile and quick
wit that encases the psychological and physical ability to spring into action
at a moments notice to offer help - whether to scoop up a little kid falling from
his first bike ride or to don boots and appropriate gear to run toward
the danger of a raging wildlands fire.
While
we as non-firefighters flee the fire - the fire crews race toward the flames in
an effort to cut off the fire’s fuels. Their
goal and concern: to protect the wild landscape they love; and lives and homes that may be in the path of the fire. They respect fire as an intricate part of the environment, they also know
its dangers.
The
loss of the Granite Mountain Hot Shot Crew has brought new recognition to the
sacrifice offered by all firefighters – structural and wildlands crews. Until this event, there
had not been such a loss of these heroes since Sept. 11, 2001.
I’ve
had the honor of getting to know wildland firefighters from the standpoint of a journalist and as
a community member that included wildland firefighters. I accompanied crews on prescribed
burns while living in Oregon in the course of writing news stories about their fire
suppression efforts and practices. Losing these 19 heroes recently brought occasion
for me to, once again, hear people talk about their gratitude for the firefighters.
After
listening to many who have fled wildland fires, there is that common theme that's repeated: Recognition and gratitude that the hotshot crews and smoke jumpers and
Forest Service fire crews run "to" the fire to contain it while community people
attempt to 'escape the flames.'
In
truth, if they can help it, even the fire crews try not to go directly "into" the fire,
rather, they use a variety of tools, practices and techniques to contain the flames to protect wildlands, wildlife, human lives and property. My premise is that
if they are heading "to" the fire rather than away from it - they "are," in a
sense, going "into" the danger - INTO THE FIRE.
During this past week (June 30 – July 9, 2013) many of us have struggled to find ways to show our respect, offer condolences to the families, offer our own sacrifice and to honor those lost to the Yarnell Hill fire. An impromptu memorial quickly appeared along the fence at the home base of the Granite Mountain Hot Shots in Prescott, Az. It seemed to be the first place that people could congregate and honor those lost. A candlelight service was held at the local high school. Community meetings to address the progress of the Yarnell Fire suppression efforts also addressed the loss of the 19 firefighters. Also addressed was the fact that one of the 20 man crew had not been among those attempting to shelter in place when the fire blew back on them.
Brendan McDonough had
been assigned the duty as ‘look out’ for the crew and was in a different location. He too, remains the subject of prayers and
support, and heroic respect.
Sunday,
July 7th I had intended to watch the televised broadcast of the
Honor Guard Procession, bringing the bodies of the 19, from the coroner’s
office in Phoenix - home to Prescott where the official memorial service would
be held on Tuesday.
As I watched the broadcast of the procession
beginning in Phoenix I was suddenly compelled to actually be there and so made the 45 minute to one-hour trip
to just outside the Yavapai County Fairgrounds where the procession was headed. They would travel thru Yarnell and so there was time for me to make my way to the fairgrounds. I was early enough to find an open parking
spot just off the shoulder of the road at the intersection of highways 69 and
89A South. There were at least a thousand or more like minded people parked
along the roadway for as far as my eyes could see. That was but a small part of
the route the 19-hearse motorcade would travel from Phoenix to Prescott Valley with 'mourners' lining much of the route.
The weather-thermometer in my vehicle read 104F for the outside temperature when I arrived about noon. Throngs of people stood
along the pavement waiting for the procession of 19 hearses and accompanying entourage.
Large and small red, white and blue flags and purple streamers waved above the landscape along the
roadway of people and vehicles and motorcycles.
Each time I thought about how ‘hot’
it was standing beneath the blazing Arizona sun, on the black tarmac beside the
roadway, I immediately remembered that exactly one week before, the 19 young
men we all stood waiting for had lay huddled in the midst of the inferno’s
super heated gases in individual emergency "safety" shelters. Those shelters were no match for "those" high temperatures.
Yes, as we all
stood waiting - it was hot, but today it didn’t matter.
One
young woman stood beside me with her six and four-year-old fair haired sons.
“We
had to be here,” she told me. “No, I didn’t know them (the firefighters) but I
needed to be here.”
Plying
her sons with water and shading them with an umbrella, she explained that while
her younger son might not remember the event as he grows into his own manhood, they
would both know that this was important, and that they as a family (dad joined
them later) had attended this procession to offer their own respect for the
sacrifice of what she considered – national heroes.
After
standing on the roadway for nearly four hours, we knew the procession was
approaching as a dedicated Smokejumper DC3 aircraft, with jump-door open and classic smoke-jumper red and white
colors, began its flyover above us all.
Uncontrollable tears welled up and flowed from my eyes and a large lump developed in the midst of my throat as I saw the first of the 19 white hearses top the hill above us. Escort vehicles led the way as they turned the curve of the highway and travelled down to pass just before us. Other fire and emergency vehicles brought up the rear. The Granite Mountain Hot Shot Crew's own crew vehicles were also in the procession along with vehicles of other wildland firefighters.
As
they travelled on into the fairgrounds the red and white DC3 flew overhead
again and dropped a flurry of 19 purple streamers from the sky.
I
heard someone make a comment that summed up the day’s events for me, and I know
this to be true from my own experience with the environments that surround
wildlands firefighters. That is: while others have come to recognize the
sacrifices made by our firefighters - firefighters have been considered a
community’s true heroes long before the recent great loss, and they will
continue to be valued-so.
The sacrifice of the families and friends of these brave men can't be understated, I pray that they will all have the support and assistance they will need to get them through the pain they are enduring now and will endure for sometime, but also to appreciate that their lives, our lives are blessed to have had these heroes among us.
Hearing
of their loss on June 30th, was heart wrenching for me. My own method for working thru the emotional experience was the creation of an original song in simple tribute to the Granite Mountain Hot Shot
Crew and their brothers and sisters who run toward the flames so others may
escape the danger of fire.
It was comfort to hear that, from the time the firefighters bodies were brought down from Yarnell Hill, taken to Phoenix and returned to Prescott, througout the memorial, through funeral arrangements and burial, there was a fellow firefighter accompanying them.
Even through this deep loss there is at least one item of hope and salvation. It rests with the fact that Brendan McDonough is still with us. It was gratifying to also hear the support, respect and love given to Brendan as the only one of his 20-man hot shot crew to return from the Yarnell Hill Fire alive. A fact seen as a blessing but one that will undoubtedly bring him both blessing and sorrow throughout his lifetime.
Weeks brfore their lives were taken on Yarnell Hill, the Granite Mountain Hot Shots were battling the Doce fire. The Doce was a big fire whose smoke could be seen with great intensity 50 miles away in Lake Montezuma.
Monday, October 24, 2011
Wild Pigs Wander My World!
Finally, after months of hearing about Javelina (or collared peccary) in the area, I actually saw them with my own eyes this early morning!
Peaking out the back door around 4-4:30 a.m. just to take a look at the clear night sky I heard 'munching' below the tree-lined edge of the back yard. Then I could just barely make-out little rounded shadows moving along as my eyes adjusted more to the low light! I must say the pre-dawn experience was exciting! There they were!
In the very spot I’d pointed out to a friend yesterday. I’d thought the indentations might be Javelina tracks in the rocky Arizona sandscape beyond the patio. Here was confirmation – in the dimly-lit hour of early morning – that I was right! One of them lay down in a depression and seemed to rub his back into the wallow spot just as I had imagined they might have been doing.
I counted seven gray moving figures, including three smaller youngsters, but could hear more of them deeper in the trees - munching and crunching, grunting and wallowing. The group in the yard didn’t seem to know or care that I was watching them. I imagine they were feeding on the fallen Mesquite bean pods that littered the ground. As I was able to make out the shapes of their rounded, mounded little bodies they looked more like a herd of mini-buffalo grazing beneath the mesquite and desert willow.
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| Nocturnal scavengers! |
Viewing them ‘munching along’ in my backyard – I thought, “they’re kinda cute!”
Then, as if on cue and just for me, I heard them ‘grunting’ like pigs. I stood in the darkness wondering – if they might be talking to each other about me watching them; maybe discussing whether the herd should be prepared to either run into the gulley or charge me!
I remember how my neighbor Kelly says they’ve trashed her vegetable garden on a number of occasions until Dan put up a fence to protect their tomatoes and root crops. I remember reading something that explained how a herd of Javelina will attack and do mortal damage to a dog without provocation.
This morning, Google tells me: “Peccaries are aggressive enough in temperament that, unlike Eurasian pigs, they cannot be domesticated as they are likely to injure humans. In recent years in north-western Bolivia near Madidi National Park there have been reports of people being seriously injured and killed by large groups of peccaries.”
So maybe they’re not THAT cute! And maybe I do want a bigger fence around my backyard!
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| Prickly pear - Javelina appetizer! |
- * All photos and written works copyrighted by B. Marie Jarreau unless otherwise noted.
Ahhhhh Arizona!
B. Marie Jarreau October 16, 2011
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Sunset Over Jerome, Arizona |
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| Prickly Pear Cactus in Red Rock SP |
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| Monsoonal Clouds |
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| Arizona Sorbet |
Though we've still seen one or two minor rainstorms, we are sad to see them end. Now, however, the days are absolutely 'picture perfect' - deep blue sky, bright sunny days with sensory perfect temperature through the days and not too cold into the nights. Whether I'm working on projects in the house, touring the landscape, visiting nearby neighbors, walking the trails, sitting on the patio or headed for town to get errands done it's just such a pleasant environment.
- My immediate neighborhood is quiet and pleasant. On one side a young couple with a toddler. They aren’t home that often. On the other side of them a very nice late-middle-aged couple. He an artist - especially loves metal art, there property is tastefully decorated with his art. Other side of me lovely folks from Canada. The house is their vacation home. They come as often as they can and were here in early September. Already wonderful friends. They came over for dinner one evening and we spent most of the night singing and playing guitar! Kris, originally from London, is a master guitarist and has his own recording studio in Winnepeg. We were all lost in the magic of the music. Those old-folk-songs are universal and really bring people together - LOL.
- Nextdoor to them another lovely couple and already good friends. I love their southwest-style home. Tracy originally from Wyoming, Lincoln actually grew up in Burns!
How's that for a small world!
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| Ballooning photos by Elizabeth and Jonathan Nash |


That would take another hour of writing but I'll just note my love of The Red Rock country! The Red Rocks of Sedona and Oak Creek Canyon are the kinds of photographic landscape I've been searching for throughout the US all my adult life. I'm not interested in any of the 'so-called Mystic qualities' for which the area is well known but the beauty of that landscape sends me into a photographer's Nirvana!
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I took the photo of the Red Rocks under snowcover last winter.One of my favorite images and favored hiking places. |
- There are 4 or 5 nearby towns in which to shop or take care of any other of life's necessities, and that's not including Flagstaff or Phoenix. I'm not in any big hurry to go to Phoenix, except maybe to see the museums or the botanical gardens etc. (maybe next year). I do enjoy an occasional trip to Flagstaff. Had wanted to see Lowell Observatory since I was a star-gazing kid growing up in New Orleans! Jon and Beth took me there for my birthday in June. What a treat!!!
- Last week, my daughter got an unexpected day off from work so we decided we should go to the Grand Canyon. It's THAT close! A great day-trip.
Oh, as a side note: yes of course there are 'negatives' to living here. I've experienced a few things.... but at the moment, I can't think of any worth writing about!
* All photos and written works copyrighted by Marie Jarreau unless otherwise noted.
























